Most of the time I have more questions than answers when it comes to the realty of the life I see around me. The way God chooses to love us and involve us in what He is doing even though He truly knows us is a mystery to me. I mean there is nothing we can hide from Him. There is no sin He is unaware of in our lives.  There is no motive He doesn’t know about in the deepest place of our hearts. There is no amount of good we can do to make up for our lack. There is nothing we can offer Him. And yet He doesn’t just tolerate us, He seeks us out. There really is nothing impressive about God getting us to “join His team”. God has been speaking to my heart about His resolute love for me and it honestly has been really difficult for me to accept. In my mind I was ready with my list of reasons why that could not possibly be true. Over and over He spoke His message of love over me and I felt like a child who is not sure if they can really believe something a grown up is insisting is truth. There was something in the back of my mind pushing back, thinking surely eventually I will find that this is some scam and I will end up looking foolish and naive for believing it. The truth is that I don’t understand His love. I don’t “get it”. The fact that God’s love will never change for me and is in no way link to what I can or can’t do for Him is beyond my comprehension. Freedom came for me in the realization that I don’t have to “get it!” All I have to do is trust Him and stand on the truth! I don’t have to understand it. I don’t have to explain it. I don’t have to apologize for it. I just have to believe Him. I can just know that because He said He loves me, He actually does. Why? I don’t know. How? I don’t have a clue. But He does! Wow! I know it’s simple, but it was such a wonderful revelation to me when it finally clicked! All I have to do is remind myself that what He says is the truth and I don’t have to “get it” at all for it to be effective. It is always effective. Knowing it just allows us to walk in greater freedom! I am so grateful that He doesn’t wait for me to figure out what He does and why before implementing in my life. There is an incredible freedom in letting go of the need to “get it” and just trusting Him instead. He sees, He knows, and everything is made perfect in Him!

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